“Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” (Isaiah 43:19 ESV)
“Every time I think of you, I give thanks to my God. Whenever I pray, I make my requests for all of you with joy, for you have been my partners in spreading the Good News about Christ from the time you first heard it until now. And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.” (Philippians 1:3-6 NLT)
“It was by faith that Abraham obeyed when God called him to leave home and go to another land that God would give him as his inheritance. He went without knowing where he was going. And even when he reached the land God promised him, he lived there by faith—for he was like a foreigner, living in tents. And so did Isaac and Jacob, who inherited the same promise. Abraham was confidently looking forward to a city with eternal foundations, a city designed and built by God.” (Hebrews 11:8-10 NLT)
As I stated in part 1, seven weeks from now ends my designated “Year of Jubilee.” Only my Heavenly Father knows what will take place during these seven weeks. He has already done so much, but I am convinced there is more to come. It’s not that there won’t be many more breakthroughs in my future, but this is a uniquely set aside period of time for things that have been plaguing my life to be removed, and things that have been missing to be added.
Yesterday I confessed my desire for a lasting breakthrough in the area of my battle with weight. The other breakthrough that I long for daily is the reconciliation of my relationship with my son. While the breakthrough with my weight is a very “hands on” battle requiring effort on my part, this breakthrough is just the opposite. In submission to my son’s desire I have been forced to take a “hands off” approach.
My son has made it very clear that he considers any effort on my part to reach out to him as blatant disrespect for him. He has chosen to disassociate himself from me and has requested (actually demanded) that I “let him go.” He has made it crystal clear that any contact from me is unwanted. The identified issues pertain to religious and political differences. I can’t help but wonder if there is something deeper that has not yet been addressed, but rather than speculate I am going to stick with what I know not go into any further detail.
I have done my best to confess my faults in this. I have asked for forgiveness. And I have forgiven. I am ready, willing, and able to do whatever else is needed to be an instrument of reconciliation. If there is anything that I am unaware of that I have said or done to bring about this division I long to know and take steps to make it right. All I can do at this point is wait. I HATE THIS WAITING! (there I said it).
At times I feel that my faith is so small in this. I find that with the passing of time (it has been 10 years now) it has become too easy to simply put this is a deeply buried compartment within me and move on (denial). However, the Lord won’t let me do that. He keeps bringing my son into my prayer life. He brings him to mind on a regular basis. I continue to pray for his well being. I want him, and his wife, to know the Goodness of God in a deep and intimate way.
I am believing that a breakthrough will come soon (hopefully during the next seven weeks). It’s never too late!
Do you need reconciliation with anyone? If so, let’s believe together.